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The Thought of Suicide

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Jeron [SharpSh00tah]:
My life has hit rock bottom. My father has been laid off. My brother and his Fiancee have a kid comming with no money. I also have been laid off, I have no money because I pay for my car, power, insurance, and mortgage just for a start. For god sake, I had to buy groceries for my father as he cryed on my sholder.

I think after my mother passed away my brain has not functioned the way it has before. I got laid off tonight and my father is "discusted/dissapointed" and knocked me out literally.

The three girls I was speaking with want nothing to do with me now that I have no money. Shows how real they are.

I have no job, no money, no life partner, no family.

The thought of suicide has never entered my mind until today. I am scared for my own saftey and dont know who else to turn to. I find it extremely sad (as I am crying writing this) that the only people I can turn to is this Team and community. I have nobody.

I live in south Florida in Palm Beach County, specifically Boca Raton. Everyone is rich here and drives their Bently's and Lamborghinis'. Yet, I have nothing, except a roof over my head. My car is gone, my computer is gone, my phone has been shut off, and I am stealing internet.

I cant even get started about my mother passing away as my cuzzing did too; equalevant to my brother. I cant believe suicide has even entered my brain as I thought I had it undercontrol.

With a black eye, busted lip and a torn heart, I am lost, depressed, and cant believe I am about to end it.

~Jeron

Mark [lodle]:
Hey Sharp,

We have all been there mate and you have to believe that it will get better. I know times are tough for allot of people but you and i can get through this. If you need some one to talk about your issues im always around the corner on skype (well half way round the world in real life) and im sure if you need some money i for one will be willing to help out.

Mark

Wake[of]theBunT:
Sharp, me too. I have always given you any money I could spare for you to get things you need desperately and this is no exception. We will always be here for each other.

Please don't sink further to these thoughts because you have to think of the people too, all around you, who have lost their family member (your mother) and would have to deal with yet another loss. It feels like they wouldnt care because everyone is doing it tough and your emotions tell you "i need a way out", but thats not true about your family! They like us, if understand how low it is you feel, would want to show the love and give you all the reasons they could how you can get through it.

You have to live for the hope that it will turn around. Your brother will need a hand with that kid, man. He'll need a babysitter over the next few years when he gets a job and she does part-time work during to give that kid everything it needs. They might not spare for someone to do it, they will need their family support, and you are part of that.

Many reasons to live for hope. And I'm sure along with mark, we are not the only ones who can throw you a bone or two if you need it badly anytime this week or for a bill coming up, don't be afraid ask. I will also be on steam where you can always reach me, even if im not there when you write ill read it and email you within a few hours I promise!

kraid:
As Mark and Wake allready said, you can count on us.
Try to focus on the things worth living for, like family or friends.
Just hang in there, if you don't do it for yourself, do it at least for them and for us.

Goldenzen:
and important to say is that you only can appreciate the good times when you had bad times as well.
In future when you`ll have things in order and you`re happy with it you will appreciate it even more because you`ve also seen the bad sides of life.
Worst thing you could do now is end things because then you`ll never see the good sides of life...

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